Sunday, May 24, 2015
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
I no longer do this. Now I just say, "I'm bipolar. It's a side effect of the meds. Don't worry it's not a big deal." Then I just let the other person stew on that information. I don't get into long conversations on it. Sometimes they thank me for sharing something they interpret as deeply personal. I don't care if they think it's deeply personal or not. I just don't care anymore. If they think it's catching, or communicable, and want to avoid me. That's their choice and personally if that's they way they feel, I'd rather not hang out with them either. Take me as I am (these days) or walk away. This is my life. I really really don't care about your judgements.
If I stop for just a second, I just have to remember that life is beautiful, wonderful; yes; deeply challenging sometimes, but still beautiful. Hold a baby, pet a dog, sit on a dock on a lake and fish ... watch a sunset. Life is a miracle. Get help if you need it and stop hiding.
Saturday, May 9, 2015
Here is my latest video.
What seems like a few seconds, can be actually hours, days, even months. In order to make this video I had to learn to use Blender 3D software. And, Blender is a very difficult program. Not at all intuitive. Hours of watching and cross referencing YouTube tutorials is a requirement, because the on-line manual is a disaster and several of the book I spent good money were just no good. And those books were out of date.
Still There was a total of easily 100 hours in making the video - per a period of three months.
I am always fascinated, but mostly flummoxed when other people, especially my own students ask, "Wow. How long did that take?" Also I am irritated by that question. A real artist, designer or craftsperson doesn't think in how long something takes. They think more in terms of how to get what is in my head out into the real world? Time doesn't enter into it.
The skills they need, if they don't have them, they learn. They practice and practice and practice until they can get what they want. And then they start in on a piece. And as they go they practice up on anything they need until that is working. They make any tools they need, if they can't find those tools to buy.
It tends to be a quiet life, buried deep deep into your work. Not thinking about how long a piece will take. You do whatever you need to do, until you get what you feel is finished.